Confused and Silly

Veterinary

2006-11-29T17:03:56Z

Me and my gf was at the animal hospital today to check up on her cat Seven due to Seven having problems with her ears. The trip to the animal hospital is always tedious as the bus closest to the place is like 1 km away and across several big and heavy traficked roads, which means it's always quite a struggle to get there, especially while holding a cat in her transport cage at the same time. But anyway, we got there safe and sound, and in quite good time nonetheless :) We had to wait a while for the veterinary to look at Seven but we got a few good news when we were told what was wrong with her actually. Both me and my gf were very worried that Seven might have something serious and/or lifethreatening but it was nothing like that, it was just a fair lot of infections in her ears which can be treated and removed. We also were told that she didn't have any Feline Corona-virus either, which we were kind of worried she had, both for her own sake and Fuzzy's sake as we were planning to introduce Seven and Fuzzy to eachother soon as well in preparation for me and my gf moving in together. Now that we know that there are no threatening diseases or anything like that we are going to introduce the cats to eachother tomorrow evening, I'm really excited myself about it, to see if they like eachother or what might happen. I know Fuzzy can be a bit shy and stressed when it comes to other cats, but she usually calms down quickly when she gets a chance to see that the cat isn't evil or anything *smile* I mean the local cat in our stairhouse have said hello to Fuzzy a few times and now Fuzzy doesn't even burr herself up and go all hissing like she used to, so I'm quite hopeful about it.

Also me and my gf are eagerly awaiting our 6-month anniversary on the 7th of december, it's quite strange to feel that we have now been together for so long and still going strong. It's a wonderful feeling. We are planning on first eating out in a greek restaurant and then going to the theatre to see "My fair lady", it should be very fun indeed, haven't been to the theatre in ages. Of course I'm also a bit nervous and anxious about it all as well, but I think it will subside soon enough.

Anyhow, that's what's going on in the silly life of me :)

Food

2006-11-02T18:13:17Z

Me and food, it's a bit of a paradox, at times I do like to cook food, but I'm a complete doofus in the kitchen most of the times. There are loads of recipes I would like to make, but every time I've tried they've often failed horrifically which kind of reduces the amount of healthy dishes I can prepare. I would like to be able to make different meals every week and not do the same ones over and over again, both for my sake, my girlfriend's sake and my friend's sake but it just doesn't seem to work for me. Recipes in cookbooks that say "extremely easy to make" or suchlike, seem to fail anyhow, or just be completely nasty. At times I wish I could make those recipes they have on the "You are what you eat" show, since I really need to diversify my cooking repertoire. Sure I've lost almost 25 kgs since the summer of 2005, but I suspect I still lack a lot of nutrients.

I think that now, when I'm fairly often making food for two, I'm beginning to feel that I want to contribute in a healthier way than just go about the same old recipes over and over. At times I would really like to make my friends go WOW over my food. So to sum it up, I'm quite annoyed at myself. Though I was quite pleased with things yesterday when me and my girlfriend threw a halloween party where we made this pie which everyone actually enjoyed, I hadn't anticipated such a reaction actually, but I guess there is actually still a hope for me and my cooking abilities. It's funny, when I was younger I hated cooking, but now I'm beginning to like it more and more, especially when I can cook for someone else, but the problem is still that I'm so incompetent at it.

There are times when I wish I had paid more attention to home economics classes and that I would be able to try more recipes. But life is life, and me and the kitchen still have battles to fight.

Packing

2006-10-19T21:00:46Z

The thing about packing is, apart from it's tediousness, the fact that you almost always either pack too much or too little. There is no such thing as "just right". Me and my girlfriend is going over to her mother's place for the weekend tomorrow, and I seem to have packed for about a week in total, even though we will only be away for 3 days. For some reason, that always seem to happen for me. Every time I travel to my parents' place up north I always pack loads more than I actually need, so I'm starting to see a bit of pattern here.

Well, I hope the trip will be a bit of relaxation at least,even though both me and my girlfriend need to study a lot during the weekend. That's probably the most annoying thing with the whole trip, that we can't just "be", we have to actually do something. I think what I would need the most right now would be an escape from everything for a little while, to get rid of the stress and expectations and just exist. It's just darn impossible to do that here right now, or even always.

Bureaucracy

2006-10-12T13:58:11Z

It's an interesting thing that goes through everything when it comes to bureaucracy, or for everything where humans are involved as well. It's called money and responsibility. The thing with bureaucracy though is that it's governed by laws and regulations to make sure that the different areas of the respective department dont just shuffle over responsibility over the payment for any kind of action that needs to be taken. However the departments, at least in Swedish health sector seem to find new ways of actually using the laws and regulations to make sure that their respective department won't have to pay for a procedure needed by any one patient by simply citing "We have no competence" , "That's not in our department" or quite simply not notifying anyone when something in an application for treatment is missing. So no matter what the consequence, just shuffle over the responsibility onto someone or something else.

Bureaucracy, you gotta love it *smile*

A fresh start, or not, or something in between

2006-10-11T21:00:20Z

Yikes, it's always interesting to notice the echo in here every time I come back after a long break from livejournal, it's like walking into a completely empty auditorium. So why am I back, why did I leave, why am I asking a lot of questions and what is the meaning of asking about asking? I dont really know myself, I just felt like taking up the reins again, especially as I feel it's good for me to express my silliness online *smile* Oh and yes, I'm still as silly as ever, in many ways even more so now.

So what has been happening since my last post almost 2 years ago, well quite a lot actually. I'm almost finished with my studies to be a social worker/counselor, will take my degree in social work by this summer and hopefully go out working after that. My life has changed dramatically in many ways, many more ways than I had ever expected. Most of the changes are for the better, and some are superbly fantastically enormously amazing. One such change is my girlfriend, never thought I'd find someone so wonderful as her, even less did I think that someone as wonderful as her would be interested in me. We've been together for a little more than 4 months now and counting... It's absolutely divine.

My cat, Fuzzy, is as crazy and silly as ever, but she has started maturing a bit. She is after all 4 years old now after her birthday on the 12th September. She's become a lot calmer and less peopleshy compared to how she acted before and she's taking up a lot more room both mentally and physically. As do I for that matter.

By the way, anyone got any ideas for a new Shadowrun mission for my roleplaying group? We're starting with the new Shadowrun 4th edition on saturday and I'm stomped for ideas.. which is not good for a gamemaster to be :) Well, I'm going back to fixing and mixing and whatnot I'm doing.

Wee, finally a new picture

2004-05-03T16:47:12Z

Finally managed to get a decent enough picture of Fuzzy to have as my icon here on LJ, now her look might not be as cuddly as she usually is, but I think she looks cute. Today Fuzzy actually took on a little adventure for herself when she jumped into my next-door neighbours open window, and wow did she get surprised when she noticed I wasn't in that apartment. Fuzzy can get a little shy of new people, but this time she was a bit too scared to just jump back down from the neighbour's window and head over to my apartment again so I had to go over and get her. Otherwise Fuzzy just loves to run around outside the apartment on her leash, even though she gets a bit silly and jumps into the apartment for a few seconds, then immediately runs out again. But I guess that's the cat-way.

I gamemastered a session of Shadowrun yesterday actually, the second part of my introductionary campaign to Renraku Arcology Shutdown. As always it went a bit slow in the beginning with all the planning and scheming between the members, but eventually they managed to get a bit going. I think I'll have to make the next part of the campaign more action-based and less planning-based so that the warriors of the group can get something done as well.

I'm also trying to figure out what to write for my social work course when the assignment is due May 18th. I'm thinking of doing a historical perspective on social welfare, starting from the philantropic traditions and to modern day's welfare system, focusing on Sweden then of course, seeing as I'm Swedish :) . It will be a bit tricky to get all that on just 6-10 pages as this assignment is supposed to be, but I think it will work out alright. A friend of mine was very amazed that I was so calm and hadn't even started the assignment yet, seeing as he was already panicking for lack of time to finish it all. I explained I've always been like that, I usually work hard the last few days before the assignment is due and finish it all up by then, that just the way I work.

I'm really looking forward to wednesday now, me and a friend is going bowling. I haven't bowled in years, so it should be a lot of fun, especially as he hasn't played in ages either, but most of all it will be fun to do something other than just universityrelated all the time.

Hello again

2004-05-01T14:17:03Z

Meow, it's been quite a while since last update, and actually loads of things have been happening in my life so I'm not quite sure where to start. Hmm...

For one thing I've quit my old study program on university and started a new more humanistic program to become a counselor of sorts, social sciences and the like. It was just too much computerrelated thingies in systemscience and eventually it just became too much. So I quit just after the second year, took some small courses in the fall and then got into the social sciences program to spring. I must say it's been the best choice I ever could make in more ways than one, my classmates are wonderful, the program feels so right and finally I'm starting to feel that my life is getting back on track. It's taken a while, but slowly I'm getting there. So now I've got 3 years of studies more to focus on, it's a bit scary to think that when I finally graduate from this program, I will have studied on this university for almost 6 years, where has all the time gone? It feels like yesterday I just moved to this town and started, but now I'm almost a veteran :)

Other parts of my life is starting to look up as well, the process towards actually getting a life is going well, I've gotten a lot of new friends whom I'm very grateful for, if it weren't for them, I would probably have gone crazy(-ier) by now. And for once in my life, I'm feeling quite good both physically and mentally and most of my anxiety have vanished.

Fuzzy, my cat, is as healthy as every, and very active. She loves being on the outside on her 10m leash now that the sun is shining and there's lots of insects and birds to chase :) She's become quite a determined young lady, and quite spoiled(I know, I know, I've really spoiled her lots).

I'm also trying to get a new apartment on campus here, a 2-room at about 40m2, as I feel both me and Fuzzy could use the extra space. But this is a process that will take about 6 months or so more, but I'll tell what happens with it here.

oh and by the way, if you haven't seen the movie Bubba Ho-tep with Bruce Campbell, I recommend you do it as soon as possible, it's a great movie!

So to sum it up, All is well :)

Odd

2003-07-24T16:12:49Z

One of the big mysteries of life is the fact that whenever you need something, you can never find it. On the other hand, when you need it least of all, you find it 20-30 times/day without even looking. Isn't it a bit odd that it is in all essence a big part of what everyone thinks nowadays? Perhaps it can be called the "Shit happens" syndrome or something. Everyone always thinks that whenever something goes wrong, it's always a personal affront to the individual her/himself. I mean, I often find myself thinking of Murphy's law: "Whatever can go wrong at any one time, will go wrong" , and actually noticing that it is very accurate and could almost be described as a scientific fact by now.

Is it that all people are pessimists in the bottom and have to think that everything that happens will take a turn for the worse as soon as it can? For me that wouldn't be right most likely, as I'm one of the only ones in my group of friends who's a true Optimist. Many of my friend seem to find that odd that I can see things from a positive point of view despite the fact that things are just going more and more downhill every day. Is it that everyone wants to be able to explain any faults or problems onto anything else but themselves? It's either God, Fate, Bad Luck or something else, it can never be one's own fault. We are truly an "imperfect" species in that sense, we can never see things for what they actually are.

Hmm, as always my thoughts flow from one thing to another, and as always it's impossible to keep track on them :)

Time to end for now.